OMG! GONNA DIE!

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Ok, so I am literally running around like a fucking chicken with it's head cut off! I'm panicking a little and freaking out and so busy I have no idea how I am going to be able to handle it.

So this week: I have school today until 4pm then an hour train ride home where I will go straight from the train station to Frankfort where I start bartending classes tonight (monday) at 6pm and it goes until 10pm. When I get home I have to go prep my screen so it can cure over night.

Tuesday: School until 1pm then I have to run up to Dekalb to drop off Georgie's power charger and help him with issues with his cat then drive back down, go to bartending school, go home, do prints.

Wednesday: School until 4pm again then bartending school then going home to do last minute prep for the art fair

Thursday: Classes until 1pm, set up for the art fair, stay until 4ish, go to bartending school, go home and or finish printing if I haven't by then

Friday: Get up at 8, go to school, sell at art fair until 3pm, go home for like an hour, bartending school then pass out dead.

Saturday: Pass out dead.

Sunday: Pass out dead, then Art History paper, then figure out what I am doing for sculpture.

I'm fairly confident I am going to die by the end of this week. I really didn't plan out starting my bar tending school appropriately. Maybe I should call and reschedule when I start... It would literally save me from dieing this week... It runs for 4 FREAKIN' HOURS! That's INSANE! I am EXHAUSTED as it is, let alone adding on another 20 hours of studying and work every week, even if it IS for only 2 weeks. I dunno, I'm conflicted. ::Sigh:: Wish me luck.

Update:
So I decided to take the not-dieing route and rescheduled my bartending classes. I'll be starting those in May after school ends. This has relieved my stress CONSIDERABLY. Also, I am doing my first prints today when I get home. Wish me luck! Hopefully the emulsion turned out alright and I'll be able to get going. I'm hoping to have at least 2 sets done and my business cards before Thursday. I might get away with being able to do 3 sets by Friday. We'll see how today goes and if it goes well. I really am hoping I don't screw it up this time around. ::crosses fingers::

So, news and jazz

So, in the past two weeks, I have been through a little bit of hell and back. On the down side, I have lost my pet frog to a terrible infection, my sister stole my purse and my favorite bag for her brat of a child without so much as a "oh, sorry", I am pretty sure I am failing two classes, I do not understand anything going on in my web design class, and I began to question if I even wanted to do design.

On the upside, I realized that I really do love design and am looking forward to being able to create my own things when my time frees up a little bit, my boyfriend is awesome, my parents were very compassionate and understanding about the death of my little frog, I am finally getting help with my classes, and I am stealing back my bag tonight, damnit. Also, I found yummy granola.

I am feeling creative but a little overwhelmed. I have too much I have to do and too much I want to do and it's overwhelming. I have a little time right now, so I have to start work on the cover design for Abstraction, though I'm not sure if I really want to pursue that. It just is so disorganized and I feel almost ridiculous with how unprofessional this whole thing is. Eh, it'll look good on a resume... Then I have another website I have to create, which I am nervous about since I don't understand Dreamweaver at ALL. Tutoring would help a great deal, so I have to find someone. I also have a presentation, an artist journal, and an essay due in Art History which I could give a damn about. I will do it only because it's a required class but, as my friend said, it is so hard to do anything for a class when you just don't give a shit about it.And a still have that god damned wire fish to finish. I hope it burns in a fucking fire after I turn it in.

That's about it for the school portion of my work. I have an idea for a cool text image rendered traditionally but I am going to have to wait until at least the weekend to work on it. I also have to do some research on what I want to do for the ICMAD project, and since I am doing it independently from a class, I can take my sweet ass time with it. YAY! I have to call about to come friends too and see if I can get my photo shoot going. I am kind of doubtful it is going to happen though... It's more likely to happen over summer when EVERYONE is home and I can easily phone people up.

I have a busy month ahead and it's already half over without me even realizing it. Time to buckle down, I think, and get some real work done like a mother fucking ADULT.

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Ever have one of those days?

Have you ever had one of those days where nothing is wrong and nothing bad happens but nothing good happens either so you feel down without knowing why? I've been stuck in a whole week of those for some reason. It's been just such a bleh week. Nothing is really going on, nothing seems to get done, and all I want to do is sleep. I don't know why I've been so depressed but I feel like I'm bringing down everyone else around me and I don't like that feeling.

Today was particularly bad... I woke up with a feeling of dread, I trudged to school, I sat in class and zoned, then felt like lead for the rest of the day. In sculpture it took me almost two hours to make a rectangle mold out of clay when it would take me a half an hour on a (an? 'an usual' sounds weird to me) usual day. It just felt like I was trying to mold steel with my hands and I felt very weak and tired, so unfocused and dazed, that I just couldn't get it right. I guess I didn't get in trouble only because Bobby Joe said he felt the same way, which made me realize how many other people were feeling the same way. It was like a cloud of 'meh' had settled over our city and was making tempers short, happiness feel grey, emotions ultra sensitive, and work seem like a monumental task.

I really hope the haze breaks soon, I'm afraid it might lead to a breaking point for me. I really can't handle another one so soon after the last. Here's to hoping the weekend will give me time to rest and regroup so I can snap out of it.

I just...

REALLY fucking love this guy! It's like if Misha Goro ever got SUPER rich. I like to imagine this is what he would be like.




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Also, on a slightly more serious note, this is super awesome too. I love the design of it. It's very interesting. 


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I survived!

I survived Blizzard 2011! Woohoo!

We had 22 inches here in Homer Glen with drifts well over 6 feet deep. We couldn't even open our back door onto the balcony this morning. We spent a good 4 hours shoveling/snow blowing the driveway and 2 balconies so we would be able to get up before spring. It was INSANE! The dog loved it though, so that's good. He dug himself a tunnel from one side of the yard to the other and kept popping up out of the snow like this fox:




 It was hilarious to watch. Too bad I was too busy shoveling to get my camera out. I'm going to probably get him doing it again tomorrow though, so pictures will be a must. Hope everyone got through the crazy THUNDERSNOW alright last night! Our lights kept flickering and it was pretty scary. Lucky we didn't lose power. Alright, going to go drink some hot tea and enjoy being inside.