Have you ever had one of those days where nothing is wrong and nothing bad happens but nothing good happens either so you feel down without knowing why? I've been stuck in a whole week of those for some reason. It's been just such a bleh week. Nothing is really going on, nothing seems to get done, and all I want to do is sleep. I don't know why I've been so depressed but I feel like I'm bringing down everyone else around me and I don't like that feeling.
Today was particularly bad... I woke up with a feeling of dread, I trudged to school, I sat in class and zoned, then felt like lead for the rest of the day. In sculpture it took me almost two hours to make a rectangle mold out of clay when it would take me a half an hour on a (an? 'an usual' sounds weird to me) usual day. It just felt like I was trying to mold steel with my hands and I felt very weak and tired, so unfocused and dazed, that I just couldn't get it right. I guess I didn't get in trouble only because Bobby Joe said he felt the same way, which made me realize how many other people were feeling the same way. It was like a cloud of 'meh' had settled over our city and was making tempers short, happiness feel grey, emotions ultra sensitive, and work seem like a monumental task.
I really hope the haze breaks soon, I'm afraid it might lead to a breaking point for me. I really can't handle another one so soon after the last. Here's to hoping the weekend will give me time to rest and regroup so I can snap out of it.
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