New Idea

Ok, so, I came up with this new idea for my portfolio. I am still focusing on the sexual nature of people but in a more specialized area. I want to focus on Dominance and Submission. My work from the past reflects my interest in this already, so I figured that I might as well continue with this string. I have always been fascinated and captivated by the whole aura of dominance and submission. I love the art it produces because of the emotions and the amount of tension in each piece. Aside from the content, the feel of each piece is always so commanding and forward, so provocative, that it's hard to ignore.

I am going to have a lot of fun with this. I am still going to use my original idea of sexuality as a whole, so using both gay and straight partners, multiple partners, and I'm going to try to portray internal struggles too. I want to turn out at least 10 pieces with this theme and I believe that will be no problem now that I have so many idea swirling in my head.

In other news, I have one of the greatest friends and teachers in the world. Ms. Jaime O'Connor and her husband have given me the privilege to use their photography studio to work on my portfolio. I told Jaime about my lack of resources and how I can't afford to do high-end photography that would look best for my work, so she made me a deal. I can use their studio in exchange for helping her husband create his new website and business cards. You have no idea how excited I am about this! Now it's just my job to find some models for me and I believe I can get about 3 for sure. I need some help though, so if anyone wants to volunteer or knows someone who would be willing to work for free/food, then I would be SO GRATEFUL!

Alright, time to get crackin' on my ideas and turn out a few pieces of digital design work as well as the fetish work so I can have a little variety.

Trying to climb a glass wall or finally getting a foothold?

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So, I realize I am probably one of the most lazy people on the planet, and I have come to accept this. My procrastination has always been spawned from my hatred of doing homework, which inevitably is why I am not an A-B student. It isn't that I am not intelligent or that I don't understand the content (excluding the bane of existence: math) it's just that I hate doing pointless amounts of paperwork or tedious assignments when I already understand the subject matter.

For example, I could easily get an A in history, but I often get Bs or Cs because I find that wasting time writing out answers to questions already covered in class outside of a test is just tedious filler work that eats up my time of doing something fun or more important (like watching all 6 seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer). On the other hand, I do realize that I should try to be productive by doing things that I both enjoy and that I can use in my professional life.

On that note, I am signing up this weekend to bartending school so I can get certified and start working to save up money to move out by the time I graduate in the winter of next year. I am also going to go sometime next week to apply for some internships (probably unpaid and once a week) just so I get my foot in the door for my REAL profession. I have always wanted to bartend on the side though, so I will have fun making this my part-time job and cash cow until I can get on my own two feet in the design world. I am also going to the hardware  store today to get a cheap pressure washer so I can start doing some decent print work in my studio at home.

I also need to go to Chicago Screenprinting to get some supplies because that damn Yudo machine shit is too expensive and I know I can get screens and silk screen chemicals for cheap there. I just have to find the time to go and maybe drag someone with me because I am always terrified to go to new places alone since I have the tendency to get lost and panic the first time I go. Maybe I will drag George... Hmm...

I guess the whole point of this post is to say that although I probably will never stop procrastinating, that doesn't mean I won't get things done. I just like to do them at my own pace. So, time to act like a mother fucking adult and get stuff done!

...After today.

New Semester

So, break is over and I have started a new semester. I just got back from the southern Caribbean cruise my parents so generously paid for me and my sister to take, It was pretty awesome, I must say, despite my sister being a bitch and just wanting to lay out and drink. I personally would have liked to see more of the islands and gone into town a little more, but you know, whatever. I will go back one day with someone much more fun, like George. Regardless, I had fun and now am back at school.

I really needed my break, it helped sooooo much. I was freaking out with panic by the end of last semester, and have recovered nicely into calm, rational me again. I have my new schedule and I am pleased with it, except for one little problem. I am conflicted about dropping a class or not. If I drop it, I can go home at 1pm every Tuesday and Thursday after my two studio classes. If I don't drop it, I will have one more class out of the way but have to sit through a 3 1/2 hour gap. I am going to talk to my dad I think, because it's really something I not sure about. I have to figure it out by Thursday. Any suggestions?

Anyway, here are some pictures from my trip.